holiday

isn't quite the word i would use to describe it.
not that parts of it weren't good but the rest of it was just so weird, so not what i'm used to.
i video chatted everyone in tifton at my cousin's house after lunch on thanksgiving and i feel like i talked to about a hundred people- they were lining up in the hallway to skype me and tell me that they missed me and wished i was there.
by comparison, my whole holiday just seemed quiet.
my life feels quiet.

nosce te ipsum

know thyself!

(i'm working so hard to distract myself from the 2 exams tomorrow and the paper i have due)

listen to only when tired and/or sad:

my friend tipped me off to this guy the other day, he's quite the winner.
the emotional, sad, acoustic guitar playing winner, but winner none the less.
http://www.myspace.com/noahgundersen

(if you like this guy and still don't know who william fitzsimmons is LOOK HIM UP)

i wish

that it was okay to spell color with a "u" here instead of just in Great Britain.
it's just prettier-
colour.

into the wild

is probably one of my new favorite movies. it kind of scared the crap out of me the 1st time i saw it cause it made so much sense to me- it was like watching an alternate reality for myself.
it makes this reality seem kinda lame actually. but i'm trying not to think of college as an obstacle between me and my life- i don't want to resent it. i'm trying to think of it as a journey that will make me into the person that God wants me to be.

there are people that hate change. i am not one of them.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhe3vb0z7mY

it's funny

how crazy you get over rain when there is never any.
someone said it was sprinkling and all of a sudden i had 5 texts and everyone in the dorm was running outside.
especially the seattle-ers.
they're crazy about it.
it's funny what connects you with home. one of my RAs worked at Dollywood over the summer so at hall dinner all we talked about was the south. cracker barrel, magnolias, porches. it's weird talking about that in the third person- her describing things that were different for her and me knowing exactly what she was talking about. it's funny being on the outside and having that conversation instead of just being there in it.
in a lot of ways, thanksgiving in Arizona is going to be weird.
but it's so soon- it's crazy how fast the semester went.

Fake Plastic Trees.
Radiohead.

everything is illuminated

and by that i mean, it's getting close to thanksgiving. 2 more weeks actually and everyone is starting to look forward.
which is such a relief. i don't do standing still well. it's just frustrating and i feel like nothing's being accomplished. God's been telling me to be okay with where i am and to take this time to work on myself and i am, i am okay. but i like looking forward.
it's more hopeful than the present.

halloween!

was fun.
there was a ton going on on campus-
my dorm hosted the kids of the faculty and staff and we played games with them and gave them way too much candy. it was adorable, so many tiny kids in big pouffy dinosaur and kangaroo (my favorite!!) costumes.
and then there was a "pirate cruise" going on in one of the apartment dorms across the street and they drove us around in vans and we got attacked by zombies and hit with water balloons and our driver accidentally drove into a pole which was probably the most exciting part of it, but it was pretty entertaining. our driver's pirate name was fleckin' face.
then there was a party going on at another apartment/dorm that we went to for a little while to meet up with friends and see everyone else's costumes and stuff. and then we went to the house of one of the cheerleaders cause she had a party going on which was just your standard dance party, nothing too exciting but i got to hang out with people.
that is one of the good things about going to a christian school- not that we don't have our faults too, but you don't really have to worry about alcohol and a lot of the other things that are a lot more present on secular campuses.
anyways, it was long but fun and i got to watch it's the great pumpkin charlie brown like 3 times which = WIN.
since then it's been a PM midterm which was the scariest 7 minutes of my life and performances of Beethoven's 9th symphony on monday and tuesday and now i have a few low stress days before more concerts on friday and saturday (different music of course, they love making us learn and memorize things REALLY quickly) and all of the preview kids showing up and filling my hall with high school students... at least i don't have to host anybody!
side note: tonight was nerd dinner for my hall at the caf and now everyone at Azusa Pacific has seen me wear my super sexy retainer and fanny pack. get it!

listening to:
How To Grow a Woman From the Ground
Chris Thile
(Check it out!!!)