Monday, April 25, 2011



this is dead week and next week is finals and the semester is over. i'm getting ready to come home. i've missed the south, and i've missed my family.

"Southern is an early spring morning shrouded in a thick mist. The warmth of a bright sunrise reveals shimmering jewellike dewdrops upon thicket and fence. A large spiderweb glistens, a spider trying desperately to wind its prey into the web. My father set out to prepare for planting corn. The first day, I walked behind him while he was plowing and singing one of his favorite hymns. For me, it was a great moment. Walking along, pressing my bare feet against the warm plowed earth. All of the chickens were behind me, picking up the earthworms and bugs. He turned up roots of sassafras bushes, which we took to the house for the next morning. "

Friday, April 22, 2011

I had the great privilege of seeing the band Fun. perform tonight and it was fabulous. Everyone sang every single word and the band did such a great job. They put on a fantastic live show.
There's nothing like music to rally people, and knit them together.

Friday, April 15, 2011


i had coffee today with a girl from the ministry and service office on campus and we ended up talking about intentional community because it's something we both have a passion for. they tried to establish an intentional community in the dorms for this next year but it didn't take off which was really disappointing for me as an applicant and for the girl i was talking to as the coordinator. anyway, she told me that they are looking for more student input for next year as they try to make it happen again and she asked me if i'd like to partner with the office in making it happen. i don't really know exactly what my role would be yet cause it's not an official position, but i'd be working with them to plan what the community does (it's a social justice community so we would be doing service projects in the community) and how it works and helping to get people interested and signed up. i don't really know what i want to do after college, but i do know that i have a real passion for community and have always thought of community development as an option after school and this is an opportunity to do that and figure out what community development really looks like!
the plans of God always take me by surprise- and i may not end up doing this, or loving community development, but i know that God orchestrated this and that He is going before me planning my way. we are in good hands.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


all i want to do is cover you like a blanket
pour my heart for you and be sure that you drink it.

Monday

The birds are in their trees,
the toast is in the toaster,
and the poets are at their windows.
They are at their windows
in every section of the tangerine of earth-
the Chinese poets looking up at the moon,
the American poets gazing out
at the pink and blue ribbons of sunrise.
The clerks are at their desks,
the miners are down in their mines,
and the poets are looking out their windows
maybe with a cigarette, a cup of tea,
and maybe a flannel shirt or bathrobe is involved.
The proofreaders are playing the ping-pong
game of proofreading,
glancing back and forth from page to page,
the chefs are dicing celery and potatoes,
and the poets are at their windows
because it is their job for which
they are paid nothing every Friday afternoon.
Which window it hardly seems to matter
though many have a favorite,
for there is always something to see-
a bird grasping a thin branch,
the headlights of a taxi rounding a corner,
those two boys in wool caps angling across the street.
The fishermen bob in their boats,
the linemen climb their round poles,
the barbers wait by their mirrors and chairs,
and the poets continue to stare
at the cracked birdbath or a limb knocked down by the wind.
By now, it should go without saying
that what the oven is to the baker
and the berry-stained blouse to the dry cleaner,
so the window is to the poet.
Just think-
before the invention of the window,
the poets would have had to put on a jacket
and a winter hat to go outside
or remain indoors with only a wall to stare at.
And when I say a wall,
I do not mean a wall with striped wallpaper
and a sketch of a cow in a frame.
I mean a cold wall of fieldstones,
the wall of the medieval sonnet,
the original woman's heart of stone,
the stone caught in the throat of her poet-lover.


-Billy Collins

Monday, April 11, 2011




the grass smells like summer and i am hopeful.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

i am ringing you out



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Silence is praise to you, Zion-dwelling God,
And also obedience.
You hear the prayer in it all.

We all arrive at your doorstep sooner
or later, loaded with guilt,
Our sins too much for us—
but you get rid of them once and for all.
Blessed are the chosen! Blessed the guest
at home in your place!
We expect our fill of good things
in your house, your heavenly manse.
All your salvation wonders
are on display in your trophy room.
Earth-Tamer, Ocean-Pourer,
Mountain-Maker, Hill-Dresser,
Muzzler of sea storm and wave crash,
of mobs in noisy riot—
Far and wide they'll come to a stop,
they'll stare in awe, in wonder.
Dawn and dusk take turns
calling, "Come and worship."


Oh, visit the earth,
ask her to join the dance!
Deck her out in spring showers,
fill the God-River with living water.
Paint the wheat fields golden.
Creation was made for this!
Drench the plowed fields,
soak the dirt clods
With rainfall as harrow and rake
bring her to blossom and fruit.
Snow-crown the peaks with splendor,
scatter rose petals down your paths,
All through the wild meadows, rose petals.
Set the hills to dancing,
Dress the canyon walls with live sheep,
a drape of flax across the valleys.
Let them shout, and shout, and shout!
Oh, oh, let them sing!


Psalm 65

Friday, April 1, 2011

LA term preview day

we went downtown today to preview what we're doing next semester.
they showed us our classrooms in a huge slick office building.
we walked around and talked with people that are currently in the program.
and as i was sitting in a back alley coffee shop i realized that this is my life now. that the bubble is gone.
that next semester they are turning us loose in LA. we are going to take the subway by ourselves, and work jobs with real bosses and go to class and go to lunch and go home.
we will not belong to APU, we will not belong to our parents, we will belong to ourselves.
it's daunting and a little strange, but i am not worried about its coming.
this is how it works-
we move away, we learn about the world, we grow up.
it's disquieting and a little melancholy but it's rising like the sun on the edge of my horizon.