Excerpts

Today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. Don´t open the door to the study
and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.
Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don´t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don´t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don´t go back to sleep.

I would love to kiss you.
The price of kissing is your life.
Now my loving is running toward my life shouting,
What a bargain, let´s buy it.

Daylight, full of small dancing particles
and the one great turning, our souls
are dancing with you, without feet, they dance.
Can you see them when I whisper in your ear?

All day and night, music,
a quiet, bright
reedsong. If it
fades, we fade.

Spring Giddiness
Rumi

SICK

for the past couple of days.
not okay.
but it's pretty much gone now.
thank goodness.
so call me and let's hang out!

fambly

there's going to be 10 people and 3 dogs in this house by the end of the day

HOME

so joe told me about this trip he is thinking about going on this summer with this organization:
http://thestreetchildproject.org/index.php
which is so cool- they take in homeless street children and give them a home, food, education, and they educate them with the arts so that they will become uplifting and awesome members of society that will impact others in a positive way which is SO COOL (the best part- the college trip's ministry is music based)
i am so impressed that the organization and the people behind it saw the need of these children and are not only filling that but that they are trying to give them opportunities to grow as beautiful children of God and that they are teaching them to create instead of destroy, and about the beauty of this world. i think so often that just gets lost when we get so consumed with other things that we view as more basic needs.

that's what i want to do and who i want to be- a person that sees need and asks "how do we fill this need, and then how do we keep this going? how can this be restored to what God intended it to be?"

people ask me why i am so okay with being away from home, why i want to get off this continent and do something with my life, but when you consider the alternatives, why would i settle for anything less?

TODAY

1 more final in about an hour and then...
hoppin' on the plane at LAX-

i hope i just got that stuck in your head.

everyone's leaving

and i am SO BORED.
i have one more final tomorrow before i leave that is going to be really easy- i'll probably study for like 10 minutes later.
this is the most bored i've been since like the week before school though. there is nothing going on since it's finals and people are gone so there's not many people to hang out with. and they're studying. or trying to think of something to do.
which we can't cause finals have killed our brains.
i got through it though! and some of them were pretty scary- like my PM final which was sight singing in front of my super-intimidating teacher and then presenting my song to the class today (it's okay- not thrilled with it and i could have used more time to work on it, but parts of it turned out good) but now that that's over i feel kind of like a noodle.
oh stress. what you do to us.


my song if you're interested- it's a cover of jar's of clay's "on jordan's stormy banks i stand"
http://www.mediafire.com/?iimfdz2uq4h

looking forward

so everyone's out

at a party filled with people with fake hair.
why do people limit themselves when the world is so vast?
have they forgotten how big life actually is?
how limitless our options are?
cause certain people seem to do the same things over and over and none of them ever get anywhere.
and i don't have the patience for it anymore.




real conversations,
lemonade,
laughing,
eating without worrying what's stuck in your teeth.
they don't know what the heck they are missing.



also,
listening to:
Boy With a Coin
Iron & Wine

http://www.mediafire.com/?kwgz0z4z2zw

1st semester classes are DONE

isn't it weird?

what people are doing now?
people that we sat next to last year in class are now working full time- or sitting around their houses commenting on other people's pictures on facebook all day.
and some people are getting engaged and... having babies?
and as we get older this is just going to get worse and worse.
i don't even want to THINK about our 10 year anniversary.
1st semester of college over.
crazy.

how do you

tell someone you wish you knew them better?

2 Corinthians 6:11-13

"Dear, dear Corinthians,
i can't tell you how much i long for you to enter into this wide-open, spacious life. We didn't fence you in. The smallness you feel comes from within you. Your lives aren't small, but you're living them in a small way. I'm speaking as plainly as i can and with great affection. Open up your lives. Live openly and expansively!"

The Brothers Bloom

watch it.
it's embarrassing how much i love adrien brody in that movie.
i want to marry his character.
a lot.
actually, don't watch it and we'll have a viewing party when i get home!!
1 more week till finals (which i'm not really counting as real school) and once all the concerts are over this weekend, none of my music teachers really care anymore so really, it's almost done and i'll be home before you know it!
and then i get to SLEEP. WHENEVER I WANT.
and talk and see how much everyone has changed which will be fun :)

i am thankful for friends that say real and true things and remind me that this world is beautiful.
i am thankful that we can move and grow and change.
that time and life are fluid.