alters

i think there are times when it is good to look back- good to remember and learn and build alters to remind us of the good that is so easy to forget when things get hard.
and my life since high school has been a story of making plans and God tearing them down again and again. but now i can't settle for anything less. if life had gone as expected, right now i would be a music production student with a future of money and family making ahead of me, and while there is nothing wrong with having a family, and there is nothing inherently wrong with money, my life would be so much less. it would be lacking in the huge, overwhelming moments, and the sunrises, and the people that love me. i would have missed so much great depth of Him and who He is, so much singing to Him, and understanding the preciousness of His very name. i don't know what i might have had, but i know where i am going now will be wrapped in beauty that is infinite and eternal. and i am so in awe of the beauty and love of our creator. that he would quietly create such amazing things out of us, right before us, when we aren't paying attention.
his plans are so much better than my own.

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